Monday, November 30, 2009

I know U are underage..

If i were to choose between Jacob Black and Edward Cullen. I would definitely choose Jacob Black..^_^..Why? it's simpe..I don't like pale guy and a guy who leave me because he thought that's the best thing to do...I like a guy who like me because who I am and will stay to protect me...

Yes, I know there are lots of girl who go gaga over Edward..But,everyone got their own liking..

I'm the type of girl who like the beefy but not too buffy & brownish kind of guy...Huahuahuahua..that's why I chose Jacob instead of Edward...huahuahuahua...

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Melodramatic..


Once, I felt exactly the same as the singer in this video - Wedding Dress by Taeyang (Big Bang).. The feeling was disastrous..I don't want to ever had this kind of feeling again..ever..

Friday, November 20, 2009

Farewell


Friend comes and goes...

As for me, friends are people we keep and remember...Even if they treated us badly...

During the 66 months of B.Ed TESL, I’m no friendly person – I’m a loner...Lucky I am for these people still wanted to befriend me…

Started the year as a TESL student at Lendu, Malacca all of us move on to Shah Alam to complete our Degree. ..Some survived the pre degree, and some just don’t…

The same goes during degree...It’s either they don’t survived or retreat early..

In the end, only 79 remain…

May the number remain until the day of our convocation this April..

My pre degree friends – Hiezel, Jacque, Tatum, Adiba, Rebecca...Thank you for always helping me during our pre degree year...You know how miserable I am during that time..

My B.Ed TESL – the list of names is endless…Thank you...Thank you for the co-operation, the fun, the times we’ve spent together…

Ex Housemates - Zel, Jacque, Becca, Tatum,Illa and the Rajoo’s…Please forgive me for all my wrongdoing…

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Have you ever had the feeling of wanting to restart your life? I do..and this is how i feel right now..I hate my life..Wait, that is harsh..hmm..I don't actually hate my life..I just hate the mentality some of people I knew and some of the unfortunate events that have recently took place..

Life should not be seen or perceived negatively - I am not an optimist...But I do try my best to be one..But..sigh...Why must these happened all at once?

Sunday, November 1, 2009

“The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.”

Poka Tupfen



I have a close friend and I call him Poka Tupfen..We are close and that's all I can say...However, 3 years ago, we had a big fight (i guess so) and we stop calling/texting each other..

Recently, we become close friend again - during the holly month of Ramadan..I like the idea of us becoming friend again..Because for 3 years I've lost the person I would text/call to when I'm bored or need a shoulder to cry on or a person i would get silly with..For 3 years I would cry alone in my bed if I had a fight with Incik Bunch or disappointed with my life, my assignments,my friends and my family...

But then again, life is not that simple..Poka has a special girl and her name is Ash..so, last friday she hacked Poka's FB account..and that's when the problem started..They had a big fight..and it's because of me..

Yes, we are close..so close and most people get confused with the relationship we had..and Ash is one of them...

Yesterday, for 2 minutes, I had this bitchy mind and started posted "If you can't accept the truth, don't ask" as my FB shout out..and that is my most regretted act of that day..

So, within seconds, Ash commented ''this is 2 much''..and right after that her FB chat window pop up on the bottom right of my chrome window...and we started having conversation.."i don't like u" was my first reaction toward her - i don't let her know..her words were harsh,emotional,childish..she has all the hate characteristics i don't want in me..

It was 7.30 a.m and at 9.00 a.m I'll be sitting for my ethics paper..I was sitting in front of my PC chatting with a person who hates me instead of reading for my paper...the conversation was deep..at the end of our conversation, I had many things to think of...

I finished my paper early..But i didn't left the exam hall.. I sat on my desk, digesting all the things Ash has told me..

Ash, I'm sorry...

Poka, I'm sorry...

Poka, there's nothing i can do to help you sort out your problem..I'm sorry I made your life miserable..I'm sorry, I did things you don't not want me to do...I'm sorry is all i can say..

I'm sorry..


If leaving me again, would be the best thing for you..I don't mind...


I will always be here waiting for you....waiting for all your gags and your dream of doing impossible things with me....