Monday, December 31, 2012

Today is the last day for 2012..It is as well the day for TH PHD proposal presentation..2012 has definitely taught me a lot of things..It is filled with many emotional events from getting my dream job and being robbed..Hopefully 2013 would bring us more great events..


P/s--> Umar and Aisyah will start their nursery tomorrow..Hopefully they'll survive

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Oke, being an English teacher, it has become a habit of mine to check for grammar error on any kind of adverts,notes,letters and what so ever. So today, I received a seeking-for-a-job email in my institution webmail. This person sent us (to all faculty member) her resume and cover letter..Being an excited me who likes to read people resume (for the pic), it was a shocked. Why? because her English is like terrible. How can a 3.67 B.art English holder has such language and she's applying for a language tutor.. For GOD sake, didn't she millions time check her grammar,sentence, or word structure? Oh my English!!..Now, I'm blaming her for filling me up with many questions on how she managed to get such a good cgpa..Life memang tak fair..


Tuesday, November 20, 2012

So, I've been working in the new institution for 3 weeks. It is an hour drive from home - 60km..Still maidless, and it has started taking its toll..I've becoming moodier, more complaints and always feel like owning a 70 years old body..

Monday, November 12, 2012

So, last night after finally managed to put the twins to sleep, we had a somewhat funny-in-ur-dream conversation.. Here is the re-enactment of the conversation

TH: Yang, abang mimpi best gile malam td.
Me: O ye ke..mimpi ape?Ada orang bg abang superbike free ke?
TH: Takla..Abang mimpi kawin dengan Neelofa..Pastu yang paling best,sayang yang pergi pinang die.
Me: Hahahaha (evil laugh)..Not in a million years la kan...ee..Kalao saya pergi pinangkan pun,saya pergi pinangkan ustazah yang alim2 tuk awak..
TH: - went on with the details of his best dream excitedly -
Me: Yang,sayang rasa mimpi abang tu bukan pasal abang akan dapat kawin dengan Neelofa tu..Mimpi tu bawak maksud abang mungkin akan dapat capai impian abang yang macam2 tu..Toksah nak berangan sangatla bab kawin dengan Neelofa, umie sah2 tak bagi.....
 TH: Tak kesahla yang..dapat Neelofa dalam mimpi pun jadila..
Me: Ye yang..

Thursday, November 8, 2012

I don't mind with nosy people who are interested with what I posted in my FB cos I see it as my life is way better than they are and that's why they are sooo updated with what I posted..My FB is my thought, my life., Living in a  so-called free country, why should I stop saying things I like to share with others then? Furthermore, I mentioned it in a very general manner.. Makan cili memang terasa pedasnye, tak gitu?.. An advice to nosy people,who like to be updated with what I posted and also those insensitive Andartu with no looks and third world mentality, IF YOU DON'T LIKE PEOPLE TO TREAT YOU LIKE CRAP, STOP TREATING OTHERS LIKE CRAP..If you happened to read this post, it feels crap isn't it?Hold yourself from going into rage, because what you guys have done was basically soooo HIGH SCHOOL..

oh, I feel like soo high school for acting this way..haha..

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

No looks,lack of sensitivity and morality plus third world mentality..sorry..it's a pity.......sigh..no wonder you are carrying the title..

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Alhamdulillah..Another blessing, not in a form of a baby, but in a form of career and financial security. I finally made it to the institution where I want most to work for. Yes, so long my current workplace. Thank you for the two-years experience you've provided me, plus all the negativities. Weehoo... The best thing is my M.Ed classmate also succeed the interview..My first day would be next Sunday, Nov 4th..Yeay!

Friday, October 12, 2012

Hubby's away..10 weeks to go..Aiyak, everyone in the office has started panicking..T_T

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

I just don't want to put any hope..I just need what is best for me..

Friday, September 14, 2012

Finally, after 5 months without maid, we will be having a new one starting next week! o yeah!!
and yes, I finally get the call that I've been waiting for..Amin..^_^

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

I have to keep remind myself that I'm doing this because of the EXPERIENCE and not for the money..But still..

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Sesiapa yg beriman kpd Allah dan hari akhirat hendaklah memuliakan tetamu dgn memberi layanan kpd mereka.Sahabat bertanya"Apakah layanan itu wahai Rasulullah?" Rasulullah menjawab "Layanan istimewa sehari semalam,dan tempoh layanan sebagai tetamu hendaklah dalam masa tiga hari,layanan yang diberi selepas tempoh itu dikira sedekah."

Monday, August 13, 2012

I have yet another 3 months for the final submission of my M.ed dissertation..my friends have started being busy with their questionnaire..and me, still stuck with the alteration of my chap 1,3..chapter 2 lagila tak bergerak2..Only the questionnaire is done..still, tak sure mana pun it will be approved..sigh...stressing out for raya, the maid (still has not arrived) and now dissertation..O Allah, please o please, give me the strength and courage to submit my dissertation on the date of the submission..T_T..I want to buy a car, so in order to do so I've to graduate..T_T..bleh ke ni nak grad by end of this year..T_T...T_T..T_T..T_T

Monday, July 30, 2012

I went for my depo injection last Saturday..While waiting for the doctor, I weighted myself..Guess what, I am waaaay lighter than my wedding weight..muahahahahahaha...Bahagia gile rasa!hahahaha...yeay!! I'm in the normal BMI range sudah..Another 4kgs to go and then I'll stop...


Saturday, July 21, 2012


The best birthday present ever!
akan senyum ke telinga sampai sebulan..

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

So, it's the 6th week of the semester, 2 weeks away from having a maid again, and 4 weeks of tiring weekdays..Still surviving, just hoping that I was offered a job at TH's..Yesterday, right after my isya' prayer, TH's boss asked him to pass my resume to this particular person so that this person can send it right to the Rector since he's going to meet him anyway...I was pretty shocked when I heard it because after my Isya' prayer, I asked for Allah to give me a chance of working at TH's..Has my prayer been answered, pretty much I guess so..

It's not that I don't like working in my current workplace, it's just I don't like to have to see that particular person that I don't like..The person that has caused me so much pain and hatred..which is completely not me..I don't usually hate a person to the point that I wish him/her be a doremon..But this time, I'm having this feeling which is soooooo not gut gut..Aiyak, but this is life isn't it..Rainbow will not always be there for u..


So, 'Umar can finally walk on his own..He started making steps like 3 days after his first birthday, but only this week I guess that he started to be able to really walk for a long distance..As for Aisyah, yup, still taking her time..She can walk, but decides not to walk yet..Oh, we call her YB now, because whenever she saw the family members or strangers that she like, she will raise her hand in Nazi motion and smile..Funny isn't it?

Yeay Sunday is a public holiday because Terengganu won the SUKMA..yeay!

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Alhamdulillah..I've been working for 3 weeks, and so far I survive - tapi penat sangat....As for the bibik thingy, I've paid the deposit for the maid, hopefully the bibik will arrive soon..This is the first time i deal on my own..Before, it was dad, now me..Semoga tak tertipu sebab I used my own money..banyak kot!..kalao tertipu memang akan nangis..T_T..semoga tak, sbb agent tu nampak like someone yang bleh dipercayai..

This semester, 24 ATA..It is tiring..sangat kot!3 classes of the 1st semester and 1 class of the 3rd semester..As usual, there'll be students yang sangat annoying..tapi this time around, these kids cam "I'm cool cos I'm from KL" oh annoying..How dare them gave me stupid excuse for not coming to my class "I tot the lecturer will not come because for the last 2 weeks no one came for our class" or " I just arrive from KL last nite" (hello,u arrive a day late kot) or "oh sorry, I overslept"..kengkonon best la kan kaorang tu sbb dari Lembah Klang?hello, kao English terabur jgn nak eksen sgt dgn aku..Argh!stressful oke when I have to see their face..Lucky me, coz their classmates sangat la tak cam dorang..I might turn to Zeti the Meti kot towards them..hahaha..oh evil thought..no no no...


Oh, birthday is days away je..me hubby, I want S3 can?haha...this will be his reply "IN YOUR DREAM SAYANG"

Monday, July 2, 2012

So, it's been 8 days..fulamak..Life is hectic I would say..So many things and I'm taking it slowly as not wanting to make life stressful...Good Idea eh? So, this semester I have 24 HOURS ATA...crazy?yes!...3 classes of BEL120 and 1 class for BEL311..aiyak..how am I going to survive this semester..

I still have 1 group assignment for Dr.E's subject..The submission date is this Sunday..Oiyo..Everything now seems very blury..I just live my life on a short term goal purpose..So far, things pretty oke, minus the boring feeling that always come due to the my so boring routine..

Aisyah and Umar have turned 1..TH bought them the plastic pool available at Toy 'r Us...The same for Ina..while mum bought them a push car each..Aisyah is very expressive, and her reaction when she was given the car was so precious..It was so funny and yet soooo pure..

Many things happened since I started working, and thankfully all those things were for good reasons aje..Alhamdulillah..Oh pay day, can u come faster?hahaha..

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Am currently with a job..
Yes, Alhamdulillah, the sending of resume will be stop till the later date..
Alhamdullilah..

Now, the only problem is, BIBIK..
oh,plis make it fast ayah..
huhu..

Thursday, June 21, 2012

I am a working mom!

Alhamdulillah, most of my wishes for this year have been granted way before my expectation..The only wish left is to be graduate by July..That wish for sure has to be postponed for December...Nevertheless, Alhamdulillah..I am more happy than I used to when I wrote the list...^_^

Alhamdulillah

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Alhamdulillah..
hopefully, I won't received any call from the other party,
If I do, I don't know how to answer them..

* the other party called..and yes it is rather dissapointing when they offered me less than I should be received...nevertheless,alhamdulillah

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Oh my..I'm so exhausted..I really in need of a bibik..The 'bibik' we used to have has gone back for good to Lambok..The initial plan was,she's going back for a month je..The problem is, my dad decided to not buy her return ticket..memang la will be fat chance die tak blk kan?now me and mum are having SUPERBLY HUMONGOUS PROBLEM..we are tired..extremely tired..why?there are so many things to do,and taken care of...Hopefully dad will start looking for a new bibik soon..

Aisyah was admitted for a night on the 12th - age tro dysentry...The lab result isn't out yet,but she's discharged earlier as she showed no signs of sickness..The only problem was and is her poo poo..Oke..The problem started showing last Sunday..Usually her poo poo smelled like poo poo and has consistency of a good poo poo..But ever since Sunday, her poo poo started having jelly-like mucus, very runny, and on Tuesday,she started having blood..Though the blood was not really visible pun..STILL! it is red...Despite that,Aisyah was active as usual...Alhamdulillah..

Tomorrow,we'll be newlywed again..hahaha.Aisyah & Umar will be tagging along their nenek to Gombak..yeay!

Monday, June 11, 2012

I am 1kg shy from my wedding weight..
lost 3 inch for waist..but gain somewhat around 1.5 inch each for bust and hip..hmmm...

Friday, June 8, 2012

I need a break..
A getaway..
just me and myself

Thursday, June 7, 2012

The moment will surely arrive when you suddenly lost the feeling and never regret for having such feeling and the decision you've made...It's part of what life is..

For sure, I will still have my godsend Umar Aisyah for as long as Allah wants it to be..

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Last week was a tired week..The beginning of the week was spent with me key-ing SPSS data - 600..up until now the number of data I've managed to key in was 401 baru..Then on Thursday we went to JB and spend two nights..The food was so cheap and tasty..haha..makan jela kan aku ni..But being someone like me who live in a place where the food taste blurgh and expensive I am surely will mentioned about cheap food that tasted great at somewhere else..I rather be sweating cooking than spend my money eating blurgh tasting food in Dungun..You can actually count the number of tasty food stall in Dungun that sells good food...

So, being able to tag along TH to JB was a great opportunity for me and the kids to get away from this superbly boring DUNGUN...oh,my mum and siblings tag along too..hahaha..bila masa lagila kan nak ke JB if not because tagging along TH or attending kenduri kahwin..oh btw, The Manhattan Fish Market kat Tebrau city punye service sucks!ada ke patut we waited for like an hour an half..memang surely will not eating at the outlet lagi..

As to recap the week, we attended TH's female colleaque punye kenduri kesyukuran..So, in east coast, wedding reception for the groom's side is known as kenduri kesyukuran...It was Aisyah's 2nd kenduri kahwin, and Umar's 1st..It was a very low key reception..No stagering eye catching dais, elaborated khemah nor foods..It was really a low key..I hadn't had the chance to taste the food as it was running low..So TH offered me to chose any place for my lunch..I wanted SR..but, biasala die kan, when it comes to Mesra Mall, die memangla sangat tak suka nak pergi sana...We ended up eating at MCD..TH's fav..

Oh!My masters class is 3 weeks away je untuk dihabiskan..o Yeah!!!






Sunday, May 20, 2012

Life is not a fairy tale
Some people look very nice even when they are in just a trashy jeans, ugly shirt,
but, to some, it isn't..no matter how hard they try to be in the fashion scene, they will never be able to do so..they look OMG..The harder they try, the longer the OMG...

Stick to simple stuff...
More isn't necessarily means better..

Wednesday, May 16, 2012


This is a dung beetle. Dung beetle eats shit..
Are you related to dung beetle 012968*37*?
Next time, bila meludah,tolong jangan meludah secara mendongak ye..Nanti kena muka, terus tak laku laku sampai ke tua.
To whoever this RUSLINA BT MOHAMMAD, 670111-03-5306, Biology + English Teacher at SMK Zainab (1) Kota Bharu,
O' Please, inform your banks,the clubs you are in,your students, and your friends that you no longer use the 013-984**** number..I am super freakishly annoyed and tired of having to answer and read the supposed messages sent for you..It's been freakishly 2 years!oh tolonglah!

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Most people will appreciate the one who loves them so much only when the person has already done with pouring so much love to them...
I pray, that i will not stop pouring love to my loved ones..
Even if I did, it must be because my loved one has hurt me damn much..
The main reason an office clerk is hired by any workplace is because the person is responsible for providing administrative and clerical services in order to ensure effective and efficient administrative operations,

Texting married guy AFTER WORKING HOURS till 2-3 AM is NOT STATED IN YOUR JOB DESCRIPTION..oh please, you already have a special boyfriend, and yet you still bother to entertain a boring married guy's text until 2-3 AM..Whatever your reasons are, I still think you are a cheap slut....

I once read that married guy who cheated will prefer to cheat with women who are lacking in many department (e.g., beauty,education,attentive etc) than their wife. Meaning to say, these cheap sluts know that they lack in many things, thus resorting to accepting any kind of gestures offered by the bored,adventurous cheated husband...So, whose fault is it?the wife?the cheated husband?or the cheap slut? All three have their own share, but the cheapness of the cheap sluts worsen the relationship between the couple..There are two ways to destroy the fun of both cheap peep..How?It's either you text the cheap slut informing her that you know her cheapness Or you inform the mother of the cheated husband, don't forget to provide the evidence and don't hesitate to provide the MIL with the cheap slut's phone number..Once you done that,all your problem will be solved..

Till Then,







Wednesday, May 9, 2012


Bibik has gone for nearly a week..Though house work in my house isn't that much actually but still,it is tiring without helper..in a positive notes,doing housework+entertaining 'Umar & Aisyah help me to burn the naughty fat..hahahaha...

oh,in March I submitted 'Umar & Aisyah's photo for Drypers photo contest..guess what..we won!hahaha...RMIK..o yeah!we are RM1K richer..TH lets me decide where the winning money will go to..For the time being, it would be used for their Raya outfits + pampers + formula + new house clothes..

Till then..^_^

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

A friend of mine involved in a serious car+lorry accident yesterday evening on his way home from Nilai..He is now in a serious coma-crushed left arm,4 broken ribs,lungs collapse and breathing with support.
He is always known as a good friend who knows how to crack jokes - though it sometimes hurted others' feeling..Nevertheless, he is still a good friend to those who know him..
Paeh, get well soon..We are all praying for your recovery..

Saturday, April 21, 2012

I'm making this for TH's fac members since I didn't prepare anything for the 2 pot luck session..Hopefully my pastitsio will turn out as beautiful as this one..

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Finally home after 6 days spent at Gombak..I'm already missing the traffic and the many kinds of foods and pretty shops..oh yes..I gained 2kg over the 6 days..T_T

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Ya Allah, the most merciful, please forgive me for all my sins..

please give me the strengths, the patience and every single help that you can give me..

Ya ALLAH,
make me strong enough to forget and forgive the things you know I wish to forget
I though I'm strong, and yet I am not..
Give me the strength O Allah..
Please help me mend my broken heart..It's been too long Ya ALLAH..Only you know the pain I am facing right now...Help me O Allah as I am helpless without you..


oh finally!
done with the assignments..I'm surely need the much awaited rest and happy times with the twins

Friday, April 6, 2012

Acnes,
why must u visit me when I've planned to take a new passport photo?
why?
why?
I've forgotten you,why must you make my life miserable again?
Is it because of the stress resulted from plagiarism?
please leave me..
I don't want you back..
T_T

Tuesday, April 3, 2012


Stress key in data dalam SPSS sampai rasa nak makan kaki sendiri...

Sunday, April 1, 2012

yeay!alhamdulillah..berkat doa dan usaha meletakkan ubat dan makan ubat, I'm no longer have to endure the pain..Rasa mcm dh tak de ulcers dah..kekeke..tapi sebenarnye ulcers ada lagi..the best thing is, sudah boleh makan pedas!o yeah!! nak buat ttebokki la petang ni..

Saturday, March 31, 2012

The ulcers are still there and I do not know when will it heal..However, the pain has decreased..Thanks to Oral Aid and Uphalexin...During class today, Kak Khai and Didi suggested winter melon frost.. They said it's super effective in healing ulcers..Will try that winter melon frost thingy next time..

I rarely get sick, even when I was pregnant with Umar and Aisyah, the sickest I get was mild headache..This time, I got sick real bad..I'm down with ulcers,fever,headache,gum ache,back pain and nausea..Mom told me that this is Allah's way to forgive all my past mistakes and sins...hmm...If that's the case, saya sesungguhnye redha dan menerima segalanye dengan pasrah dan akan berusaha lebih tekun untk menjadi a better muslim..

Aiyak, TH is bugging me with "aish,cepatla..nak guna laptop ni" since I'm using his..

Tschus!

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

I'm having ulcers and my siblings keep on telling me to dab salt to it...I used to have the courage to put salt into my ulcer during my single years, but not now...only bibik's advice to dab pure honey to d ulcers je yang berani dicuba..Ingatkan tak sakit, rupe2nye sakit jugak!!...So, since yesterday I gargle with cold salt water as often os possible..Last night,'Umar accidentally punched exactly at the place where the ulcers are..and yes!it brought me to tears...I thought I can handle it,yet NO...I cried macam budak tak dapat ice cream...'Umar looked at me with the what's-my-fault-mummy face and then laugh at me...sampai hati Umar!! T_T

My Master's class has started..phuh..I just need to be patience for a semester..by June '12 no more class and 100% focus on my dissertation..My initial plan was to kill 2 birds with one stone..tapi malangnye,after considering factors such as my kids,and TH's well being..I decided to hold on till next semester...huhu..furthermore,there'll be no fun if I graduate alone..Yuha,Didi and Lala wants to do their dissertation next semester..Grad Master's kenala reramai, barula sejiwa..kekeke


Life has never been as peaceful as it is now - though sometimes I lose my temper jugak bila Aisyah started throwing tantrum....Hopefully this peaceful feeling will stay forever..Alhamdulillah, Thank You Allah for granting my every wish for this year..^_^

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

I don't get it why people can be soo SELFISH to the point that they only think about themselves,themselves,themselves,their reputation,their reputation,their reputation....this kind of people are so fake and plastic and bla bla bla bla...


Sunday, March 4, 2012

For two days, my happy moments were when I had to wash my kids bottom..
I really am living a simple life..Well, the truth is, I felt happier now compared to when I was working and had monthly income..There were always these ''oh,I don't have enough money to spent'', ''how I wish I have more money to spent''..Now, after being a half time housewife, money doesn't become my top priority anymore..I'm happier, and am getting more surprised gifts and free clothes from TH..I wish, this will be forever..Hahaha...ya right..I definitely have to work once I'm done with my masters classes...O yeah!one semester left, and then I'll be paid more than I used to..Hopefully, I get to work at the same place with my darling TH...how I wish..TH's new workplace sounds fun and generous..kekeke...


Monday, February 27, 2012

SIGH...I just checked my e-mail..SIGH...My dissertation supervisor e-mailed me saying that she'll get back to me in regard of my Chapter 1 in a week or 2...ape?!!arggh!!Tula, tangguh tangguh lagi...macam cerah je masa depan nak grad next sem...oh tidak!saya tamao grad next sem..nak grad this sem so that I can start work and have my own money...



Monday, January 30, 2012

we've just moved in to a new house -bigger,closer to TH and mum's workplace and closer to foodshop,grocery shop and photostat shop...yeay!fuel saving and stress for parking..

It's such a mess right now,luckily Bibik is seorang yang sangat kuat dan rajin walaupun suke membebel macam mak temah...if not,tak taola till when baru rumah ni nak berkemas..so far, it looks like a house sudah..d living room,media room,kitchen and bedrooms dah settle...cume media room2 and mini library je blum siap lagi..di luar sgt messy lagi..tapi rumah ni sangat cool...sbb ada badminton court and a great place for BBQ...yeay!semoga dengan adanye court badminton semangat tuk bermain badminton dan memecahkan lemak akan kembali..hohohohoho


Thursday, January 12, 2012

Since I just delivered a set of superbly cute twins (o yeah,puji anak sendiri) via c-sect, I have to think of contraceptive precaution..Luckily,I found MAB after giving up doctor suggestion to get the implanon,injection and the pills sebab the bad review(weigh gain )..nasib baik la masa kat kelas masters tetibe terpikir ''eh,ada tak jamu yg many-in-1 yang boleh guna tuk merancang and tak naikkan berat''..Google2 terus dapat..After asking TH's consent, terus order..hohohoho

So, I've been using MAB for a month..dah habis sebotol dah..sekarang tengah rest for a week..The changes I found after using MAB are, I've clear skin when I'm taking it,no more buncitness, dah takde rasa malas nak bangun pagi and most importantly I'm not pregnant!hahaha..if not,kena kira je hari since I don't like using any condom and stuff....BUT!Since sekarang kan tengah stop makan for a week, I noticed that muka naik jerawat..tak banyak, tapi...aaahhh!!!I want my clear skin back!!!....as for the weight,I've lost 2kg since taking MAB, but that doesn't really the reason for the weight loss..Partly maybe because I also take physillium husks every morning and sometimes I go on the exercise machine..aiya..I still have another 4kgs to lose for my wedding-weight...


Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Hubby is coming home for good this FRIDAY..yeay!!

Thursday, January 5, 2012

2012 starts with many good news..Alhamdulillah...
Hubby got a job offer and he accepted it..Yeay!no more LDR..But he has to work extra hard though for his PHD....Whatever it is, I'm super happy because hubby will no longer miss out 'Umar and Aisyah's development..^_^
Alhamdulillah,Alhamdulillah,Alhamdulillah..^_^

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Hubby received a call for an interview at a local ipts...hopefully he'll get it despite currently still in the early days of his PHD

Monday, January 2, 2012

We went for 'Umar & Aisyah paed specialist appointment at HSNZKT (Me,my dad and bibik)..It was so smoooth!usually we had to wait for four hours..For today,we only spent less than an hour je..Bahagia sangat..'Umar and Aisyah pun behaved very well..

Tetapi!ada satu benda yang tak seronok..I think I've gained weight..For the last two weeks,I've stopped burning my fat and eversince last week, I've not been watching what I've eaten...T_T..oh,bila la nak dapat blk before pregnancy pny weight..

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Welcome 2012...

I wish for a BLESSED simple happy life with lots of money..^_^
I wish I can graduate by July
I wish I can be with TH everyday by July
I wish I can start having job with good pay by July
I wish,TH and US(me and the twins) can live together under the same roof by July..
Hubby has gone for SKUDAI again..